In Desparity

I guess even the "Death Note" has its own rules. Even that perilous power that grants control in others' lives is still bound by the rules. And I can't help but wonder on what would it be, if it has no rules? It would be more chaotic than what happened on the series. So it has to stick. Rules really are important.

I observed that people really don't follow rules. Majority would enjoy breaking them instead of upholding them. And the people who breaks them, would be the same people who would shout to advocate for upholding and observing them, which makes it so damn paradoxical. This makes things so hard for everyone to believe that rules are necessary guidelines to follow. Since these rules "limit" the amount of power we can possess, we could consider them as hindrances for our progress.

I know that rules are incorporated in our life. And I have that reverence on the relevance of these rules that is a "standard" for me to measure, whether what I believe in is right or wrong. But it seems that lately, my vision on what is right or wrong has been impaired. Maybe such things that I consider correct are erroneous when we consider other people's outlook.

I know that God can clear it up for me. I know He can do it. But please, let me feel that reassurance that I could make it better and I could sculpt things according to my own responsibilities and actions. Send someone. Send my angel, for I am tired being somebody else's.