Sinner's Stance

Whoa. I am getting the hang of it. I don't want you to do anything out of hand. Soon, I will be able to keep up on this pace called life. And really, after I compare what was I like during the past few weeks, I can say I really did a good job. But there is one thing that I am really worried about. And it really freaks me out.

Yeah, there is this voice that kept on ringing on my head. It is asking me a repeating question that goes like, "Are you really sure it's okay to leave it like that?". I know I can answer that for sure, and I am pretty confident that it is a positive answer, but the feeling that it has been giving me all along says the opposite. There is this feeling that if I leave it like this now, I may not be able to regain something really important.

And that made me think. Maybe that something important was friendship. I won't be able to regain the favor of those two. But then, I cannot help it. It seemed that in their relationship, they have to put friends aside to make things work out, which is a concrete example of a exclusive relationship. And really, I hope things will work out well, as they push people away from them, focusing on themselves only.

I am really stupid on worrying about other people when I have even grave worries myself. I just hope these people that I worry about can live on, without knowledge that someone really cares for them behind those shadows of misunderstanding. When trying times come, I will prove that I am worthy of being called your friend. Even if it costs me my stance.